enraged & grieving

enraged ~ by the actions and words of some calculating, manipulative and controlling external family members. grieving ~ for the strong, sturdy man that has gone ... and the frail, weakened man who takes his place. alone ~ missing very much my husband. when god created me, he meant me to exist as a partner to another ... not to trudge through the trials of life alone. alone. alone. the tenuous routine i had developed to try to preserve my frail sanity, well that routine has failed under the pressures that impinge upon me here. i once have treaded very close to the sanity precipice in recent days ... the grace of a guardian angel pulls me back from that furious edge. i am tired. duty drives me ... some days provides me with the only reason to crawl from my bed. tomorrow the sun will rise, though. and a new day will dawn for me. along with a new realm of possibilities. and so it goes. tomorrow ~ feast of the epiphany. for me, these days ... each days seems an epiphany.