Tuesday, July 31, 2007

interview with a mantissa, act two

Tuesday, July 31, 2007
this question, for obvious reasons, deserves its own post.
so ... without further ado, i present to you
question number 3 of the cruel virgin's interview.

~ i'm still working on the final question ~

3. As a Canadian, what is your view of America?

Over half a century ago Simone Weil wrote that " ... uprootedness is the great plague of the twentieth century ..." In one of her books, The Need for Roots. I have found myself, for the past several months (since 'discovering' her) very drawn to her words and concepts of existence and spirituality. She considered America " ... a nation consisting of uprooted people bent upon uprooting the rest of the world." Indeed. I agree. In fact, in poking through some of my past, and more philosophical posts I came across this, which I wrote, about myself :
she sees the world thru her markedly mosaic lense. she realized how it colours her vision of humanity. it raises her expectations of humanity. for the beauty of a mosaic lies in its contrast of differences. she believes in the principle of equality. and so, she cannot accept that differences must all be melted into some sort of sluggish paste. that view, she sees as intolerant. equality for all means respect of each and every individual. she believes that this view makes her quintessentially canadian. the poetic beauty of the mosaic embodies, symbolically, the canadian identity.
~ me


Thus begins my answer to this question.

I grew up in the Canadian Prairies, just two hours from the 49th parallel. We visited the neighbouring state from time to time. From the people that make up the American nation, I have only received exuberance of spirit, a larger-than-life attitude toward living, the greatest (i.e. retail) service and big hearts that open up with a willingness to help when need arises. Here's a story to illustrate. Once, when I was about 8 years old, my family (4 of us - my parents and my sister, and I) went camping in a trailer my uncle let us use for a week or two. What makes this trip stand out is how complete strangers in that campsite - an American man and his family - helped us out when we desperately needed it ... when something went terribly wrong with the sewage hook-up of the trailer. We did not have a car to move the trailer (my uncle had moved it to the campsite prior to our trip) and this nice man did not even think twice ... he grabbed his truck ... hitched us up and moved us to a new spot in the campground. That's how i see the average American person.

As for the nation that calls itself America ... I sadly, and sometimes with fire, say that I see it as largely misguided ... by its lust to uproot the world at large ... by its lust for glamour, power and domination in all realms of existence ... by its lust for retribution, revenge ... and the single-minded egocentrism with which it approaches all world negotiations ... by its schadenfreude-ness ... by its exaltation of violence and destruction (the right to bear arms, WWE Raw, film/TV) ... by its refusal to reside in the world as an entirely SECULAR state ... by its spiritual egocentrism ... by its hypocrisy and sheer STUPIDITY in villifying addicts and addiction, misunderstanding addiction and in declaring a moronic war on drugs ... by its 21st century 'smoke-em-out' western-style colonialist attitude ... by its refusal, as a collective of individuals, to realize the beauty in that which looks so different as to appear alien.

I will stop now. I'm sorry to all who read this ~ i know the vast majority of you reading this answer are American ... well ... it's likely an answer you'd rather avoid reading, perhaps. But ... I have only merely answered a question asked of me; and ... many of you know of what I write intrinsically ... deep down ... whether you care to admit it ... since its your nation of which I speak, here. Please ... I hope no one flames me for this answer. I'm Just being honest.

If you wanted to swallow blue pill, I'm afraid, dear reader, that you've come to the wrong spot! ;^]


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Wednesday, July 25, 2007

golden apple

Wednesday, July 25, 2007
his soul sings silently,
threaded
in gauzy and golden light
my heart impales itself
on this melody
my soul cleaves
to his lyrical luminescence

his great, flowing essence
quenches my thirst ~
this scorching yen
that scars
of successive past lives
have woven
into my very essence

he washes me
away from myself
leaving me bare,
somewhat macerated and bare
exposed ~
for all my frailties and wounds
... he sees ... he knows ...
he hears the whispers of the universe, too

that sacred light
of his core
flickers softly,
and with each flash,
he carves
another spark
into my weak, low-burning ember

in the glow of his mantle
his innocent generosity cascades
endlessly,
scented with divine wisdom
the beauty of him
touches that raw, pulsing
and forbidden corner of my heart
which eats fire

cherished ~
the grace of his movements ~
cherished ~
the gentle contemplation
of his speech
cherished ~
my golden apple

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soaked

i hear the universe ~
softly and steadily
she breathes
thoughts
into my soul.
softly ~
like the glistening petals
of a rain-drenched flower.
steadily ~
like the unceasing energy
of the rich torrents
that cascade
from the heavens.
i feel the universe ~
she infuses me,
soaking me ~
like the heavens
permeating
the deep, red earth.

~written by the.red.mantissa~

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Monday, July 23, 2007

house of blue leaves

Monday, July 23, 2007
its love. of some kind. a really old and deep connection. one that develops over the course of several lifetimes ... over the course of several cycles of the samsara. its love ... that connects us. an abstract, visceral, soul-full love. the venn diagram that has become our lives finds us bound and unbound, simultaneously. in the house of blue leaves. blue leaves that never die. and the remains of the day ~ hidden, from view ... in that untouchable part of the heart.

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Wednesday, July 18, 2007

~cs lewis on hearts~ [nerd post]

Wednesday, July 18, 2007
just taking this hide/show script for a test drive. many people use it in their sidebars, to reduce clutter. susan, aka cruel virgin, uses it in her sidebar ... and so does this powderpuff geek blogger.i wanted to see if it would work the same way in a post. so let's see, then ... if you wanna know what cs lewis wrote about hearts, click on the +/- ... here goes, babe! +/-

"To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable."


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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

duality? dichotomy? light & dark

Tuesday, July 17, 2007
i find myself here - between light and dark. no colours exist here, a void that lies between a blinding shaft of light and the velvet blanket of darkness. i find myself here, today. no words. many, many thoughts. and the feeling of a presence, despite no one else being here but me. its sort of disturbing to feel the feelings of one who has recently been violently murdered, one who was not ready to die, one who desperately wanted to accomplish so much still. they've found me, these feelings. its left me feeling sort of ... inward ... hermit-ish. that's all, really.

inro by hr giger


oh, wait! there's a few more details. 1. ellen deGeneres can make me laugh even when my body just wants to purge, purge, purge (yes, i'm camped out on the couch with an unhappy gut today)... 2. even if its not fuzzy yet, or still smells good, don't use that 10-day old pasta sauce when you make dinner. you'll regret it, trust me. just do yourself a favour ~ THROW IT AWAY!... 3. indeed, its a wonderful world. like louie says. even if i feel saturated with sadness and ugliness today ... its still a wonderful world. does the tree make a sound when it falls in the forest, and no one hears it? indeed it does. and so, the world continues its wonderment, despite this bothersome fog i feel.




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Saturday, July 14, 2007

~something new i learned~

Saturday, July 14, 2007
IMAGE-MAP. yeah. its essentially an image that you make into a map of links. you select certain rectangular-shaped areas of the image according to its co-ordinates and you associate/attach a URL to that area of the image - these areas of the image we then call hot spots. surely, after that very primitive explanation you can see why this would amuse me a great deal. particularly when i have developed a particular sick fondness for some of hr giger's works. and so ... here's the link to the image map. mouse over the image and you will find the link-able areas. intuitively, you should know from the image where the hot spots reside. each of the linked sites will open in a new window/tab in your browser.

here's a legend to the image map, for those who need one - the image detail and associated link i have listed below.

1. right breast --> mantissa
2. left breast --> cruel virgin
3. umbilicus --> spilled to bloodlessness
4. eye/penis --> x-dell
5. goulish creature that reminds me ferry man, a la river styx --> dead like me tv show site
6. dog --> sparring k9
7. female perineum --> vagina monologues site
8. monster on which the f/male perineum pours a golden shower --> link to the good father ~ pedophilia in the RC church.

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